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by Klára Tasovská


Libuše Jarcovjáková documents her life with analogue photos and diary entries. Her Czechoslovakian homeland is in the repressive phase of “normalisation” after the suppression of the Prague Spring in 1968. The young photographer searches for islands of freedom in Prague as well as her sexual identity; her camera is her constant companion. One of these islands is the T-Club, a meeting place for the queer scene. When a murder is committed and the police become interested in Libuše’s photos from the club, her personal journey of emancipation is abruptly cut short. She enters into a marriage of convenience and moves to West Berlin. But this new world is also filled with obstacles. Using the last of her money, she flies to Tokyo and, for a short time, becomes a sought-after fashion photographer there. Continuing to search for the life she wants to live, Libuše’s path leads her back to Prague via Berlin after the fall of the Iron Curtain. Using only photographs and the diary entries she reads out herself, the artist – together with the filmmaker – intimately relates her search for identity, everyday struggles, physicality, relationships and emotions.

international title: I'm Not Everything I Want to Be
original title: Ještě nejsem, kým chci být
country: Czech Republic, Slovakia, Austria
sales agent: Square Eyes
year: 2024
genre: documentary
directed by: Klára Tasovská
film run: 90'
screenplay: Klára Tasovská, Alexander Kashcheev
cinematography by: Libuše Jarcovjáková
film editing: Alexander Kashcheev
music: Oliver Torr, Prokop Korb, Adam Matej
producer: Lukáš Kokeš, Klára Tasovská
co-producer: Jakub Viktorín, Ralph Wieser
production: Somatic Films, nutprodukcia, Mischief Films, Czech Television - Česká televize
backing: Czech Film Center/Ceské filmové centrum + Czech Film Fund/Státního fondu kinematografie, Slovak Audiovisual Fund - Audiovizuálny fond, Creative Europe - MEDIA

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