I'M NOT EVERYTHING I WANT TO BE
synopsis
Libuše Jarcovjáková documents her life with analogue photos and diary entries. Her Czechoslovakian homeland is in the repressive phase of “normalisation” after the suppression of the Prague Spring in 1968. The young photographer searches for islands of freedom in Prague as well as her sexual identity; her camera is her constant companion. One of these islands is the T-Club, a meeting place for the queer scene. When a murder is committed and the police become interested in Libuše’s photos from the club, her personal journey of emancipation is abruptly cut short. She enters into a marriage of convenience and moves to West Berlin. But this new world is also filled with obstacles. Using the last of her money, she flies to Tokyo and, for a short time, becomes a sought-after fashion photographer there. Continuing to search for the life she wants to live, Libuše’s path leads her back to Prague via Berlin after the fall of the Iron Curtain. Using only photographs and the diary entries she reads out herself, the artist – together with the filmmaker – intimately relates her search for identity, everyday struggles, physicality, relationships and emotions.
international title: | I'm Not Everything I Want to Be |
original title: | Ještě nejsem, kým chci být |
country: | Czech Republic, Slovakia, Austria |
sales agent: | Square Eyes |
year: | 2024 |
genre: | documentary |
directed by: | Klára Tasovská |
film run: | 90' |
screenplay: | Klára Tasovská, Alexander Kashcheev |
cinematography by: | Libuše Jarcovjáková |
film editing: | Alexander Kashcheev |
music: | Oliver Torr, Prokop Korb, Adam Matej |
producer: | Lukáš Kokeš, Klára Tasovská |
co-producer: | Jakub Viktorín, Ralph Wieser |
production: | Somatic Films, nutprodukcia, Mischief Films, Czech Television - Česká televize |
backing: | Czech Film Center/Ceské filmové centrum + Czech Film Fund/Státního fondu kinematografie, Slovak Audiovisual Fund - Audiovizuálny fond, Creative Europe - MEDIA |